Well, we have a secret....

I should have updated this a long time, ago, but I've been in secret agent mode now for about four weeks.  We have accomplished our mission.  I'm pregnant.

Of course we are super excited, but we're also trying to keep calm until we can spread the news.  We both want to wait until the first trimester is over before we tell anyone, just in case.  A lot of people say that the more people you tell, the more support you have if you miscarry, but I do not want to have to tell a lot of people sad news.  I have been on the other end, when new mothers tell everyone, and then have to share the sad news with people they do not know very well.  It can be awkward and honestly, it's no one's business.  Ok, phewf.  There's my rant on that.

Now, this doesn't mean I haven't kept it entirely to myself.  Although Warren has and I have no idea how he can contain himself.  I have told my good friend, Bethany (she new when I was taking "the test"), Jackie, Karen (newly pregnant herself and we work together so I need her help to prepare for all of the work responsibilities), Joe my personal trainer, and Vicky my dietician.  These people are people I either work with, or help me with eating and working out.  I am saving the news for my close group of girlfriends and immediate family until January 30th, 2013 and I am counting down the days.  Each day feels like an eternity.

We just finished the holidays and that was quite challenging.  For each party and get-together, I had to pretend I was drinking.  Or pretend I just came from a party and had drinks there.  Or I was so stuffed, I can't have another coffee.  On Christmas Eve, however, my mother-in-law had a few glasses of wine and flat-out asked us if we were pregnant (I had recently made a comment about going to bed early again).  So, Warren was creative and made the situation a bit more awkward by telling everyone that no we aren't, but we are actively trying.  Great.  I don't know how the conversation changed eventually but I was dying at that moment.

So, now we just have NYE to get through, which I think will be fine since we currently do not have any plans.  I'd rather just relax.  I've been doing a lot of that lately.  This baby is already the boss of me. Who knew?

Ovulating?

So, another month has gone by and we're frustrated.

I know, I know..... we have to wait this out, considering it takes couples on average of 3-6 months to get pregnant. But last month I was diligent on the charting and I observed that my temperature never increased.  Apparently once you've ovulated, you're temperature increases due to progesterone being released.  And once the temperature has increased, it is indicative that you've indeed ovulated.  Then you're temperature stays high until you're period has ended.

Mine never increased.  Yikes.... there are a few things that this can mean so I made a doctor's appointment for this week.  I don't want to stress yet.  Plus, I know that my body is still rebounding from my competition, so I have to be patient with that process as well.

In the mean time, I can continue to try to monitor my diet, my caffeine, my alcohol and exercise.  What I think I need now is meditation or yoga.  My type A personality needs to chill out.  And for me to do this successfully, of course, I have to plan to relax and find a method that works. Ha!

In the Beginning....

Finally, I am, I mean we are, ready to have a baby.

Warren, my husband, would have had kids yesterday but I needed a lot of time to prepare myself for this HUGE change.  I love my independence and I also love my quiet time.  I love being able to do what I want, when I want, spend what I want, and make decisions based on how I feel.  Now that being said, I did say that I am ready to get pregnant.  I'm 32, have been married over a year, and now have those so-called motherly feelings.

I'm excited to feel this way because for so long, I didn't think I was going to be one of those women.  I'm not sure when it happened, but I think my switch turned on at Christmas time last year.  My brother and sister-in-law just had a baby five days before Christmas, and at that time of year I was able to see all of my cousins' babies as well.  They weren't the ones screaming at a restaurant or throwing a tantrum in the grocery isle, so I kind of warmed to them.

About three months ago, I competed in a Figure Competition in Ottawa and I won the entire Figure category.  It was the hardest thing I've ever prepared for and I'm quite proud of how well I did.  I always had plans for myself that when I was done the show, my next goal would be to get pregnant.  So, now that it is almost three months post show, I'm ready.  Although I very much miss my training and my pre-show body, I am ready to be the right size to be able to accomplish OPERATION: Make a Baby.